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Thursday, November 19, 2009
, 8:03 PM
⇨ i can feel that we're getting back shaky. afterall things are going better, and the reason is me. i can feel that you gona say this mightgona be the end of us, but i always hope it wont be true. i broke down into tears. i keepon crying and cant even just stop crying. Looking at everywhere, i feel so sad. i feel so low. looking at how life is right now, looking at how each & every situation is right now. im just out of control. i keep it strong, trying mybest to look at the brightside of life; i dont wana end up doing stupid things like the way i was before. hurt. Both the inside and outside. feel it? You might not realise what ive been through and face through, what i felt towerds our relationship.Just like viceversa,i wont know too. Retaliate, rude , disrespect , say it all. But do you know the another side of all this. I know im a useless girlfriend. neither am i a goodgirlfriend. Like uve said it all. i just smile, pretending i didnt hear a thing at all. but deep inside,it cut me deep down inside knowing that i am NOT a goodgirlfriend. when u say maybe we shoulden be anymore, i didnt win ur heart. i teared. I keep myself close to my heart, close my eyes and feel it. tears roll down from my eyes, feeling the pain of what gona happen when ur gone for good. telling myself, whatve we've asked before "will we last".marriage.Im gona miss all those things we've done togather, im gona miss going bukitbatok and miss reading all the text u always send me. gona miss those happy times.Gona miss you twisting my ears. Gona miss you scolding me. Gona miss looking at ur face when ure angry,telling me i dont know how to pujok you.Gona miss sleeping with you, having a great good night with you with the songs of trance&house..love it so much and i know i gona miss it.Gona miss the smell of ur body.Gona miss going shopping with you, dancing&club with you. Where i feel love on the dancefloor. Gona miss your bike... the sound of ur bike that i can hear from far.. obviously gona miss u calling me ma, and the very old us. where have we gone wrong? it cuden be just me, or cuden be just you. everything needs two hand to clap. Should we deserve this? im not giving up, but im just totally speechless. whats happening now? i ♥ you baby. i really really do . but am i really not a goodgirlfriend? i know i wasen your dreamgirl, a girl that cant give you happiness.right baby? please tell me, dis wasen the end. :( remember what happen on the 19of october, 2 days to 21th october? remember what day is tomorrow? im speechless for now. i cant even think. dear god. :( ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |