32: Freedom

Time checked: 2:32pm
its tuesday today, and i just woke at around nearly 2pm! i was shocked and checked my hp and call dearest. Didnt receive any msg from him, & just as i called him.. he wanna go sleep already. I know his very tired bcos he just got back from work and ytd night/morn arnd 930pm-3plusam he's at work.sighhhh.. you know i feel pity for baby to work at late hours. and i can say, dearest is a veryhardworking man. :)look at the picture above there,see his getting darker and c-u-t-e-r. right?no?hehehehe.iloveyou pa *wink*

sunday entry.
i was supposed to go to the bollywood party.But since most of them didnt go, i didnt go too like last minit plan. And instead of rotting at home, i decided to go to babyplace to meet him and fetch him than from his place ride on to my place. You know, it gona took less than an hr or a hr too reach his place. A long ride that i love in the bus and mrt, cause that is when i can ease my mind thinking of this and that.:)

i went out the house nearly 8pm. reach bukit batok around nearly 9pm. baby have been texting me asking me wher i am and etc. Reach his bus stop only at 915/920pm. and u know when i was at bkit batok intercharge, the ppl there were all kiasu. naek bus mcm naek ape.mcm bus lari pulak.gahhhh!

FInally get to see him just as i step off the bus! imisshim laaaaaa :) Than went to his void-deck, chill for awhile ... pictures..pictures..video.. laughter.. dearest look cute wit short pants tho. lalalalalalala..
than off to hougang my place and chill before baby went off ard 2plus.

at times, we can be really really crazy. at times we can be really really lovey.at times we can really really get shaky. But afterall, since 210909, he's mine yet till now.Despite of all those shaky things, we're still togather in this relationship. I never give up, and i hope we can get better and this relationship will be the last out of all and we'll last. Despite all those arguements,hard arguements, friends and family.. i hope everything will be okayyy even if it takes year.

When he was with me at that point of time, when i kissed him. I feel the love like again. The strong love that is coming back to me.i hugged him so tight, kiss him.i feel the love that i had for him is there, and on the second tot i wonder, "does he lov me?does he really-really lov and serious with me".. its not that i dont wanna give it all out, im just afraid that i'll be played like before. At the end of the day, i kena. pain you see. but now, i can feel that this relationship is going better and i hope it stays dat way. iloveyou muhd. i love you fian.iloveyou baby. can i love you more and more? :)

it sadden me so much to get parted with dearest. But still, he have to go home. :(

here are all the pictures.

- D O N E -
iloveyou pa.
iloveyou and will never give up.
:)
here are the silly few second video.

hahahaa!
=)
anyway two last updates.before i end this thing.
friends: to make it simple,i know its my fault and im sorry for everythg.Sometimes u cant expect what you want to happen or go it to ur ways. i know friends have always been there for my past problems. Be it relationship,family or friends . I had never ever thrash my friends away. which they think,im putting them aside. i have my own life tho. i can just go to each at everytime you see. People mistaken i took they kindness for granted. and etc like that;im not. i dont wanna say much. but let it be this way, ive enuf of all this thing coming back to me. i dont wanna spoke anything to anyone.be it this and that and let it be ur life and my own lifes.
marked this : i never own any enemy in life. even tho i fucking hate that person, a sorry can just sooth my heart.take it for an example, if IMAH were to say sorry to me one day,
do you think i'll forgive her? For sure i will.even tho i say,"aku tkkan maafkan dier".
i love every of my friends for sure.
once again im sorry,
let it be ur life and my life.

yst, i accp cousin to find her berkat kawin.
WAHHH BESTNYERRR TGK ORG KAWIN.
feeling-feeling lor.
fadila nikah- 18nov
nura jamil engage-22 nov.
31dec- fadila and abg rudy marriage i think
next will be syazwani marriage.
wahhhhhh.
:)
got to go now and clean up the house!
=)
baby iloveyouu okay.
tkmo marah2 gadoh2 je k.
hehehe!