32: Freedom

iloveyou.iloveyou just to much. im afraid, to feel the pain again of losing someone.Afraid that im gona feel it again. Im not strong, strong like what people always think. I love you. i cant afford any drama. I love you, i cant afford another lies. i love you, i cant afford history to repeat again. i love you, i cant afford to share love with other people. i love you, i cant bear to let you go. i love you, i wana a serious relationship. i love you, i dont want fake love life . i love you, i cant afford another drama. i love you baby. i just love you.
im feeling so suck right now, and i know that at the end of the day im gona feel like this. Why cant happy times just stays till the end of time or never enddddddd. it last only a day, not till a week. we're falling. I hate it. hate this feeling right now, im in pain. and im facing it now .

its raining cats n dogs now.
looking at the window,
feeling the cold weather, i miss you dearly.
where are you? what are you doing?

do you have thoughts for me.

im over with childplay.
im over with stupid old life .
im over with flirting.
im over with playing with people feelings.
that is all in the past and
those attitude die in me, long time ago.
i may be young, all i ever want is a serious relationship.
and true love, not faking love.

saturday.
home alone.