32: Freedom

things wasen like how it was before.

I was shivering last night, cold. Just as i woke up and set myself ready to work and push everything aside, i was in tears badly. & i realize that mybody have been week ever since few days ago, and i got myself fever. Bath and all, off to the poly clinic around 10plus and got myself an mc. Luckily i was on off day tomorrow.
Stress is the thing in me now. Definately not over a small matter. I dont know how to face and i cant think of anything. i feel lonely, i cant even think of anything.
After poly, went over to the blok behind my house sat down and smoke and listen to my mp3. Remain calm and dont wanna burst into tears. Just after ive finish my stick of ciggerette, rain started to pour heavily. Cold.
walked back home, with the song played ... walking under the rain...
emotional, name it. indeed i am. Now im home, looking at everybody. Smile, and idk whether this is the last time i'll be here. i really dont know what to do, i wanna be somewhere else right now.. I need a shoulder to cry on, and hug and kiss that make me feel better. and i dont even have a friend.Im in deep shit right now, and that explain all.

i need my boyfriend. But it seems like he didnt even find me.
:(
imissyou.