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Sunday, January 3, 2010
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hello readers.
i know im late to wish this or whatever it is but yeah,happy new year. 2010
(:
ive been wanting to blog about what im gona blog at this entry but i dont have anytime.so since im at home now, and im on off day tomorrow. Here it is.
lets reminsce 2009.
This gona be a hell long entry so yea stay tune.
:)
Early of 2009, i broke off with the ex boyfriend call muhammad fadhli. As readers who have been keeping update at my blog, you guys can see the love or everything that ive once shared with him. Here it is, Http://ashyoursex.blogspot.com Things happen along the way, we thought we could make it through but in the end maybe we're not meant to be. Both party are in the wrong. I dont want to say just me or just him, its both. But when i was with him, that is when i feel that i was really in love. Falling in love till you feel insecure. I took up my past history as a lesson to be learn. Ive never repeated what ive done when i was with him. But things just wasen meant to be.
In a relationship, i appreciate it if my boyfriend were to tell me if he have fallen inlove with someone else, or he have someone else . Different people just got their different point of view and way so yeahh... And at the end of the day, a shocking news came rolling in by text and i was just so shocked. He told me that he've fallen for someone else, but he need time to decide. I was crying like hell i tell you, i feel so shitty. Because few days before that, he teared in front of me. He never ever cry before through out those 1 year 2mth okay. He told me this and that, he love me so much and stuff. But end up.?
It was really so much for me to take you know .. And i told him off , im leaving him.
it took me 3 days to really stop crying.I tell you, after 3 days crying my lungs out the feeling started to fade away.
I let him be with her, and i know that at the end of the day he'll regret.
But feelings wasen there for him already by than.I feel so sad, i dont know why the feelings just gone like that but i believe life still goes on. I feel that i can never fall inlove again.
But i was wrong.
Fadhli wasen a bad guy. Didnt mean he leave me for another girl or whatsoever he is a jerk or etc. Maybe we're not meant to be togather.
and you know, he's the opposite type of me.
Im the kind of girl who love tanning, who enjoy clubbing. Who enjoy this and that but he dont.
But when i was with him, ive never ever club before. Because only started to club when im 19 (:/
and my 18th birthday was a memorable birthday suprise from him and my guyfriends and cousin and family.
:)
Even tho i always langgar langgar, i have my limits.
Everyone knows who fadhli and lynn is for those who know me and us.
and the way we communicate with each other are just so different. & we enjoy that way. And thats why mum always complain that sometimes im just being too kasah not lembot.
flashing back ;
me : i penat. angkatkan beg boleh?
him : malas la aku. bawak sendiri.
me : alahh boleh la please. penat.pls pls pls.
him : arghhhhh!what a irritating girlfriend i have. cepat la.
me : yey! kiss?
him : eeeeee tknk aku.
me : PLEASE LA BO.
him : yelaaa bi.
me : b ape?
him : babi la. abeh ape baby?
me : byk punye babi. baby kannn?kann?kan?
him : diam la bo.
than he'll laugh and tease me.
he always respect me and give me what i want.
same goes to me too. And he never get worried neither do i.
But ups and down leads to break up at the end of the day..
:)
Friendship.
i love my hometown people more than anything else. I put them above any friend ive have. Esp my bestfriend khairul izzul shah .We're close like sisters and brothers. People even mistaken us as boyfriend and girlfriend and i cant deny that i love him as a friend. So much but never more than that. He always advise me whenever im in a wrong and stuff like that but at the end of the day, we both go to our own ways after what happen about his ex girlfriend. It was really really so sad, very sad. It was really a very hard thing to take , but slowly im accepting the fact that he's gone.
i love everyone of them, i treasure them so much even tho theres always up n down in our friendship.
The closest are ullie, my neighbour. Suharry putra and faliq.
and than followed by the rest. Even tho people always say kampong people got no life, typical life or whatso ever,'they are still the best.
Our friendship started to fade away.
One each and everyone starting to have their own life with girlfriend and bike and stuff, friendship decided to fade. Even me.
I always got the bad name but i know deep down inside, ive never forget them.
But right now, things are so different already.
Rahimah rahim.
was my best girlfriend that i have since primary school days. We're so close like sisters. Imah & khai was part of my life. But ever since she's started to commit in her relationship , our friendship slowly fade away. Things happen that make us hate one another. I cant deny that i hate her for what had happen . But i always miss her. I miss her cartoon voice . I miss everything about her but i know nothing can bring us back. What do you expect, more than 5 years of friendship. sedih giler k? :(
Only if this two are back in my life, i'll be the happiest girl you know.
memories.
:)
(:
Family.
Im the eldest and i always got nagging from parents. As im showing bad example to my sister. I rarely stay at home. Always out and they keepon nag and all that.The trust wasen they but slowly im starting to do things to gain the trust back. Family even have problem too but im always there for mum. I cant forget the day when i hate my dad so much when i told myself i wont forgive him. But i know one day he'll change to be a better man, a better dad and a better husband.I thought i would lose my dad but nahhh i still have him around who understand what i need now.
:)
muhammad rofian.
The guy that i decided to meet after 3-4 years of knowing each other. The guy that was there for me when i fall. The guy that understand me the best at the first start. The guy that i cant deny i like him when we're starting to get close. crush u call it?
haha. yeah, i do have crush on him.
Our friendship started to get closer each day. friendship to relationship and yes , he was my officially boyfriend , on 210909 (:
many many silly things happen. Flashing back at it, it was just silly things even tho its very hurting. Revenge u call it? or whatever it is, ive never hate him. Never ever hate him no matter what had happen. And i can never say he's the only bad. im the good one?no! we both have our good and bad thing in us. Thinking back of it, its always the silly matter that destroy our mood and our relationship. Maybe because we both are different but dosen mean two different world cant get along togather (:
and muhammad rofian is the one who teach me to learn to be patience.
And i am a very very patience girl right now.
He teaches me alot of things in life too.
i thought i could never fall in love again after the ex boyfriend leave me.
But i was wrong.
Sometimes things keepon playing on my mind,
idk whether he's serious to be with me or not..but ive never ever stop loving him.
i learn to be soft, learn to enjoy each and everyday company. pampered and everything. I love every moment when im with him. Even how bad it was. :)
2009.
2008.
2007.
2006.
Whoever knows the old lynn,
Im no longer the lynn that people used to know years back than.
like the lynn u know in year 2006?2007?on and on.
:)
ive change so much. Both good and bad thing in life.
and i take every mistake and past history as a lesson to be learn.
to be someone better.
i may be bad.
But i have my limits.
ive stop playing around with people heart.
ive stop fooling around in love.
fooling around with people.
and on and on.
im turning 20 in year 2010 .:)
bende yg buruk , sume org nampak.
tapi yg baek sume org tk nampak.
call me a bitch. a slut. a basterd. this and that.
i really dont care.
:)
im painting my past black.
goodbye 2009.
hello 2010.
i wanna learn to be independent.
i dont wanna flash back at 2009 anymore.
or thinking about what had happen before.
i wanna have a new life.
and i wanna be a happy happy girl.
:)
happy new year everyone.
treasure each and everymoment okay.
with love.
i know im late to wish this or whatever it is but yeah,happy new year. 2010
(:
ive been wanting to blog about what im gona blog at this entry but i dont have anytime.so since im at home now, and im on off day tomorrow. Here it is.
lets reminsce 2009.
This gona be a hell long entry so yea stay tune.
:)
Early of 2009, i broke off with the ex boyfriend call muhammad fadhli. As readers who have been keeping update at my blog, you guys can see the love or everything that ive once shared with him. Here it is, Http://ashyoursex.blogspot.com Things happen along the way, we thought we could make it through but in the end maybe we're not meant to be. Both party are in the wrong. I dont want to say just me or just him, its both. But when i was with him, that is when i feel that i was really in love. Falling in love till you feel insecure. I took up my past history as a lesson to be learn. Ive never repeated what ive done when i was with him. But things just wasen meant to be.
In a relationship, i appreciate it if my boyfriend were to tell me if he have fallen inlove with someone else, or he have someone else . Different people just got their different point of view and way so yeahh... And at the end of the day, a shocking news came rolling in by text and i was just so shocked. He told me that he've fallen for someone else, but he need time to decide. I was crying like hell i tell you, i feel so shitty. Because few days before that, he teared in front of me. He never ever cry before through out those 1 year 2mth okay. He told me this and that, he love me so much and stuff. But end up.?
It was really so much for me to take you know .. And i told him off , im leaving him.
it took me 3 days to really stop crying.I tell you, after 3 days crying my lungs out the feeling started to fade away.
I let him be with her, and i know that at the end of the day he'll regret.
But feelings wasen there for him already by than.I feel so sad, i dont know why the feelings just gone like that but i believe life still goes on. I feel that i can never fall inlove again.
But i was wrong.
Fadhli wasen a bad guy. Didnt mean he leave me for another girl or whatsoever he is a jerk or etc. Maybe we're not meant to be togather.
and you know, he's the opposite type of me.
Im the kind of girl who love tanning, who enjoy clubbing. Who enjoy this and that but he dont.
But when i was with him, ive never ever club before. Because only started to club when im 19 (:/
and my 18th birthday was a memorable birthday suprise from him and my guyfriends and cousin and family.
:)
Even tho i always langgar langgar, i have my limits.
Everyone knows who fadhli and lynn is for those who know me and us.
and the way we communicate with each other are just so different. & we enjoy that way. And thats why mum always complain that sometimes im just being too kasah not lembot.
flashing back ;
me : i penat. angkatkan beg boleh?
him : malas la aku. bawak sendiri.
me : alahh boleh la please. penat.pls pls pls.
him : arghhhhh!what a irritating girlfriend i have. cepat la.
me : yey! kiss?
him : eeeeee tknk aku.
me : PLEASE LA BO.
him : yelaaa bi.
me : b ape?
him : babi la. abeh ape baby?
me : byk punye babi. baby kannn?kann?kan?
him : diam la bo.
than he'll laugh and tease me.
he always respect me and give me what i want.
same goes to me too. And he never get worried neither do i.
But ups and down leads to break up at the end of the day..
:)
Friendship.
i love my hometown people more than anything else. I put them above any friend ive have. Esp my bestfriend khairul izzul shah .We're close like sisters and brothers. People even mistaken us as boyfriend and girlfriend and i cant deny that i love him as a friend. So much but never more than that. He always advise me whenever im in a wrong and stuff like that but at the end of the day, we both go to our own ways after what happen about his ex girlfriend. It was really really so sad, very sad. It was really a very hard thing to take , but slowly im accepting the fact that he's gone.
i love everyone of them, i treasure them so much even tho theres always up n down in our friendship.
The closest are ullie, my neighbour. Suharry putra and faliq.
and than followed by the rest. Even tho people always say kampong people got no life, typical life or whatso ever,'they are still the best.
Our friendship started to fade away.
One each and everyone starting to have their own life with girlfriend and bike and stuff, friendship decided to fade. Even me.
I always got the bad name but i know deep down inside, ive never forget them.
But right now, things are so different already.
Rahimah rahim.
was my best girlfriend that i have since primary school days. We're so close like sisters. Imah & khai was part of my life. But ever since she's started to commit in her relationship , our friendship slowly fade away. Things happen that make us hate one another. I cant deny that i hate her for what had happen . But i always miss her. I miss her cartoon voice . I miss everything about her but i know nothing can bring us back. What do you expect, more than 5 years of friendship. sedih giler k? :(
Only if this two are back in my life, i'll be the happiest girl you know.
memories.
:)
(:
Family.
Im the eldest and i always got nagging from parents. As im showing bad example to my sister. I rarely stay at home. Always out and they keepon nag and all that.The trust wasen they but slowly im starting to do things to gain the trust back. Family even have problem too but im always there for mum. I cant forget the day when i hate my dad so much when i told myself i wont forgive him. But i know one day he'll change to be a better man, a better dad and a better husband.I thought i would lose my dad but nahhh i still have him around who understand what i need now.
:)
muhammad rofian.
The guy that i decided to meet after 3-4 years of knowing each other. The guy that was there for me when i fall. The guy that understand me the best at the first start. The guy that i cant deny i like him when we're starting to get close. crush u call it?
haha. yeah, i do have crush on him.
Our friendship started to get closer each day. friendship to relationship and yes , he was my officially boyfriend , on 210909 (:
many many silly things happen. Flashing back at it, it was just silly things even tho its very hurting. Revenge u call it? or whatever it is, ive never hate him. Never ever hate him no matter what had happen. And i can never say he's the only bad. im the good one?no! we both have our good and bad thing in us. Thinking back of it, its always the silly matter that destroy our mood and our relationship. Maybe because we both are different but dosen mean two different world cant get along togather (:
and muhammad rofian is the one who teach me to learn to be patience.
And i am a very very patience girl right now.
He teaches me alot of things in life too.
i thought i could never fall in love again after the ex boyfriend leave me.
But i was wrong.
Sometimes things keepon playing on my mind,
idk whether he's serious to be with me or not..but ive never ever stop loving him.
i learn to be soft, learn to enjoy each and everyday company. pampered and everything. I love every moment when im with him. Even how bad it was. :)
2009.
2008.
2007.
2006.
Whoever knows the old lynn,
Im no longer the lynn that people used to know years back than.
like the lynn u know in year 2006?2007?on and on.
:)
ive change so much. Both good and bad thing in life.
and i take every mistake and past history as a lesson to be learn.
to be someone better.
i may be bad.
But i have my limits.
ive stop playing around with people heart.
ive stop fooling around in love.
fooling around with people.
and on and on.
im turning 20 in year 2010 .:)
bende yg buruk , sume org nampak.
tapi yg baek sume org tk nampak.
call me a bitch. a slut. a basterd. this and that.
i really dont care.
:)
im painting my past black.
goodbye 2009.
hello 2010.
i wanna learn to be independent.
i dont wanna flash back at 2009 anymore.
or thinking about what had happen before.
i wanna have a new life.
and i wanna be a happy happy girl.
:)
happy new year everyone.
treasure each and everymoment okay.
with love.